So, I’ve been doing AWESOME with bootcamp these first two weeks. After about 10 years of being overweight & unhealthy, and about half of that in the obese range, It’s really been what I’ve needed to get to a better me. I’m really proud of myself for finishing each workout and for saying no to mindless eating. I feel like I finally have something to be proud of. But I have other feelings too.
Disbelief that I have actually am doing this. Disbelief that I really am completing the workouts and pushing myself harder and feeding myself in a nutritious manner. It seems too simple that I suddenly have changed my ways. A couple weeks ago I was really fed up with myself. With not having energy, with my general laziness and discontent. That was when I found out about Best Body Bootcamp. I also came across Caitlin’s blog, Healthy Tipping Point, and thought that maybe I was at my tipping point. But I’ve been here before. There have been plenty of times over the years when I’ve thought this was it. Finally I found a program that’s gonna make me change my ways forever. I’ll get back to a healthy weight and never look back. Well, after finding wisdom at Can You Stay for Dinner? I realized that I will always struggle with overeating and being lazy. Which brings me to another feeling.
Nervousness. So I think I’ve hit my tipping point, but since all those other tipping points really wasn’t THE ONE, what makes this time be the real time that I actually change? I’m nervous that I’ll slip back into my old ways and I don’t want that. I feel so good I can’t go back, but what’s stopping me? I mean, I know I need to not let these negative feelings overwhelm me and I must press on, but I’m scared for that really bad day when I let it all slide. What then? It’s easy to say, get back on the horse, but in that state of mind, that just doesn’t work.
Have you ever dealt with these feelings? Have you overcome them? I’d love to hear some encouragement.